Horses are my first love. Writing may be second. Followed by astrology, herbalism, photography, painting and harp.
I’ve felt estranged from some of my beloveds, codependently attached to others.
Some of my hobbies have felt like I’m sitting next to a lover, begging them to see me. Please hear me. Do not make me break down in order to be witnessed. I just want to talk to you. Meet me halfway.
None of it as fulfilling as I’d like it to be. Maybe for myself to some extent but me screaming into a chasm only to hear my own voice return to me is devastating.
My stomach is empty so why does it feel like I’m about to throw up.
I’ve been off prednisone for 2 months. I can breathe again, my thoughts roll in coherently. I am not microdosing cortisol in the hopes for a better day. Praying that it will make things better. That it will heal my body.
I’ve wrote to the moon. I have not posted about the moon. I hope she is not angry, I just can’t keep up with her pace. She is swift and nimble and I cannot keep up with her many faces. I have been deep in grief and her faces have confronted me as much as they have soothed.
I’ve been patient, with myself, with my body, with others. I am thankful. I am frustrated, I am finding it hard to write from the same perspective with all that is going on with the world. I am changing, and I am changed.
I have an autoimmune disease with nervous system involvement and I got so sick consuming media during the pandemic, leading into a second stroke 2 years later. I am treading ever so lightly into the world.
The only news I go to is the Japan Times, and I couldn’t tell you why.
I don’t have all the answers. I show up for those around me, I try to help my community where I can. Have honest conversations. I can’t tell you what’s going to happen. What I can tell you is the outer planets are shifting this year. Big energies for everyone that we have never experienced in this lifetime.
I wrote about Pluto in Aquarius many moons ago.
Neptune is sprinting into Aries next Monday January, 26, 2026.
Uranus will enter Gemini April 25, 2026.
An ingress of Air and Fire. I believe it will be both welcome and destabilizing. Breathe, set a pace that works for you. I truly believe that the things that are meant for us will not pass us.
Aries can be so impulsive, it is also the pioneer. New territory and not a map in sight. Look where you are going. Lift your feet thoughtfully in new terrain.
Uranus in Gemini, seems so innovative but also maybe flippant. Uranus is change, earthquakes and new horizons. It’s giving mad genius screaming from a soapbox but no one’s listening to the cry.
Both of these energies have a tendency to lean towards go big or go home.
Jupiter also enters Leo on July 26, 2026.
The year of the fire horse is not here yet but it’s going to have the wind at its sails. It’s galloping into the unknown and I hope this horse has a smooth gait, and a kind but knowing temperament.
I hope we’re getting Warmblood Gelding, not an Off The Track Thoroughbred that only runs at a pace no one can keep up with. I hope I still know how to ride.
Verdure and Venus 