I’ve been knocked on my ass since the moment Jupiter entered Gemini. The last time Jupiter was in Gemini I was 17. That year I was hit by a drunk driver and broke my lower left ribs.
I tried to walk it off even though I had to climb out the passenger door. I had just gone grocery shopping at night which I did often and a tetra pack of tomato soup exploded on me in the crash. The nurse at the hospital thought I pissed myself because it smelled so odd.
Anyways it’s fitting or something that the moment Jupiter enters Gemini I experience inflammation of the rib cartilage on the same side that I broke them the last time Jupiter was here. It was a tough year in so many ways. Being 17 is hard in such a weird way. Honestly this pain is worse than the original breaking of ribs. The first 2 months I had a pain level that was excruciating, I could barely walk or move. It was a bummer of a summer, and now it’s winter.
Since my Summer was a bust here’s some things that I did this October.
-spent time with my horses and beagle.
-fed the domestic but feral bunnies in my neighborhood
-started a custom paint by numbers of my dead horse because I needed a craft I could put minimal effort into
-went to the ER twice and doctor 5 times in 2 weeks in October alone
-struggled with my mortality
-3 harp lessons
-meeting for short film for a 5 day short film
-put lipstick on a sheet ghost
-went to the premier for our film
-won audience choice for film
-made reels and wrote newsletters for other people that aren’t me
-learned about plant dietas and wondered why I put my herbal journey on pause a few years ago.
-rescued the bunnies inside at the first snow. Apparently we have 2 pets now
-played harp for the bunnies (they love)
-tried to get rid of clothes but can’t decide on what I don’t love anymore
-realizing I haven’t felt attractive or sexy in a very long time (a changing body being ravaged by your immune system will do that)
-remembering when it rains or snows that I would probably benefit from a warmer climate but refusing to move due to many factors
Likes feel empty
I’ve been struggling to show up any way that’s not in person.
People on the internet are noticing web pages are being scrubbed from existence.
I guess the internet is not so permanent after all.
Verdure and Venus 